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Do what you say and say what you do.   These words are the sum of my philosophy of life.  I am having problems living with those words this date.   It is all because of a calendar, a telephone call, and a conversation with a doctor.   I hate having to do things that I do not like to do.  Consequently,  I have a three day old beard, my lawn does not get mowed enough, and I do not wash my vehicle as often as I should.   There are also things like paying interest on loans, paying for sin taxes, and the local raffles and fund-raisers that my son brings home from school in his homework packet that are on my list as well. 

This morning I had a conversation with a nurse who was instructing me on the  procedure I would have in the  hospital here in Killeen tomorrow morning.  She asked the reason why I was having the procedure?  This is where my problem with my philosophy of life is getting a little hitch in the get-a-long.  Why AM I having this procedure???!!!  I hate procedures.  In fact I do not have much good to say about the word itself much less the predicament it puts me in tomorrow morning.  I am making this decision under duress.  It is because of a Dr. in the Army who diagnosed my cancer.  He asked me, “Are you ready for the fight of your life?”  I do not know how many times I have lamented over how cavalier my answer was at the time.  “I will do what ever it takes to beat the cancer.”  I said this as I stood up an shook his hand.   Looking him straight in the eye trying to see if he noticed just how big a BS artist I really was.   But I said it, I remember it, and I am living it.  I am hating my philosophy right about now.  How wry is that?

A few day earlier I had received a phone call from the hospital.  In my mind I knew I should not answer the call.  We have caller ID through our TV connection so I knew who was calling.  I answered it any way.  After being informed of the kind of procedure I remembered that this was scheduled months ago.    I have had this procedure before.  I am well aware of the process.  At this point I think the reader may see my problem with the philosophy thing.  I hate doing things that I do not like to do.  This procedure rates right up there in the top  five things that I have done in my life that I do not want to do again.  But I said I would attend, I remembered saying I would attend, and I am living…to attend.  I am hating my philosophy on life right about now.  How wry is that?

When I hung up the phone I had a few tempestuous moments devising a way to get out of this situation.  I happen to be at home alone at the time.  Ellen was out and about.  Kellen was outside playing with his friends.  I pondered not telling anyone about the procedure.  Hey, I have forgotten other as important items.  I could say I forgot.   Aas I often do I got up to break my concentration by pouring a fresh cup of coffee.  With the coffee cup in hand I stopped to let the dog out of the kennel before sitting back down to the kitchen chair.  After releasing the hound I turned and gazed at the calender hanging on the wall.  There it was on the calender.  7:00a.m. on the twenty fifth of August.  So much for the scam that I had been formulating in my head.  I wrote it, I remember writing it, and I am living…while I write it.  I am hating my philsophy on life right about now.  How rye is that?

It goes without saying that I need to consider the Ten Commandments, the Bible, and even the laws of our land when considering a pholosphy on life.  I couldn’t write the Ten Commandments as I learned them in Vacation Bible School oh those so many years ago. .  I cannot qoute the verses of the Bible that I have heard and read.  I cannot quote laws by statute either.  What I do know is the difference between fair and unfair.  I do know that you need to be smarter than the box.  I do know that you need to see what you are looking at.  I tell my son  everyday that if you have to lie about something you probably should not be doing it.   If it is not yours do not touch it.  Now I think that, “Do what you say and Say what you do”, covers almost everything for my son of 8 years.  What would make me think that it would not suffice for me?   All I can say is the devil made me do it. 

So I will be at the hospital tomorrow morning.   I will  have that procedure even though I do not want any part of it.  All because of a calender, a telephone call,  a conversation with a doctor and my philosophy of life… ”Do what you say and Say what you do”  It would appear that my philosophy of life is not as wry as it would seem…eh??

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